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Let me first start by saying yesterday was a bad day for me. It was halloween and I went a little calorie crazy. It is completely unnecessary to eat a hot dog AND a hamburger at a BBQ but, needless to say I went there and it was yummy.

Today, however, was great! I was able to eat all the foods I wanted and still go under my calories for the day! The key was moderation.

I am a singer and this morning I went and sang with some friends from the Bellarmine Choiristers at an episcopal church downtown, afterwards we went to Starbucks. I was worried at first but, instead of ordering a Grande I ordered a tall and was still able to have one of those delicious Morning Buns.

Afterwards I put in my calories and realized that evening my Choir director had sent us an e-mail saying he was taking all the choirsters who showed up for the singing to go out for pizza on him at Impellizeri’s. For those of you who are not from the Louisville area, Impellizeri’s is the best pizza in the world bar none and impossible for anyone anywhere to resist at anytime. Plus when you are in college and live on handouts from your family, free food is always welcome.

So… I put in the calories for two pieces of pizza before I left and I only ate two pieces when I got there. If I had a shiny gold star I would give it to myself.

Lastly, my choir director, A.T. Simpson, was talking to us about women in college and what he said made a lot of sense. He said “Girls in college make me sick because they are puking in the bathrooms and starving themselves to impress some boy who has a beer belly and half their IQ.” Once I put the hysterical laughter, aside his comment really hit home. While granted, I have a boyfriend and I am doing this for myself, I agree with what he said. The entire media image of this perfect, sexy, woman was created by men and mass media and its ridiculous to beat yourself up for not looking like someone else wants.

So… driving home with my girls, and feeling quite liberated, I danced my butt of in the car to some Lady Gaga and felt great about my evening and myself.

Ok, this is my first blog and I must say I feel a little ridiculous.

Today I stuffed my face. This was my last big hoorah before starting on the path to weight loss. However, this has been like my 15th last big hoorah, which is how I got so fat in the first place. Geez.

It’s not that I don’t know what I should eat. It’s that I don’t want to and it’s so hard. I ate pizza hut AND Taco Bell today. That is slightly ridiculous. I felt the aftermath when I had difficulty walking up the stairs to my third floor dorm room. My lungs hate my ass…

I am not looking forward to dieting, but it is definitely needed. Now my main motivating factor is that I am in college and broke so I don’t have the money to buy any new clothes if I get too fat for these lol. That’s kind of sad but hopefully it will be a good motivator.

Tomorrow is a new day and I look forward to being fit and healthy.